Im tired!

Of living in my own hell.... i know i have done it to myself... now there are several ways that i could stop living in my hell and i have thought about all of them... but at the end of the day there is only one that is the right choice for me and that is change it. instead of looking at it like hell i need to look at it totally differently! EASIER said then done right?????  Yeah i just seem to be in this black hole in my head and no matter how much i talk about it i just cant seem to get out of it and it is driving me nuts!!!! But i have not been completly honest with those i talk to... becasue i cant seem to be honest with me... god idk what i want to say im just going to go ill be back when im back